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pátek 15. března 2019

Second hospitalization - part 1

Hello, everyone!

Today I am going to tell you something about my second hospitalization in psychiatric hospital.

New pal
One of my earliest memories from second hospitalization is kind of funny. I didn´t know where I was. I went from my room to the corridor. I sat on the bench. Then one man sat next to me. He looked little bit as one of my closest friends. He asked me "Why are you here?" I replied "I thought that It was end of the world." "Oh, It isn´t?" said he. We talked about strange things. Then we talked about music. We decided to sing. But we weren´t able to remember any song. But it was nice to have some company.

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Some of my delusions
When somebody told me in which city I am, I didn´t belive. I thought it was a prank and that I am still in my hometown. I thouht it is only another building from the hospital complex.
Another delusion is from my first week in this hospital. I felt little bit depressed because I was losing time. My graduation exam was occuring early and I was trapped here. I decided to travel back in time. So I was walking backwards watching clock. It was moving backwards too! At least I thought. My attempt was ruined by male nurse who banned me from running in the corridor. 


pondělí 11. března 2019

Second episode

My first love found girlfriend. I was in total mess. Before their realitionship I was kind a friend of her. After they got togehter, I hated them both. They were kissing each other in a scholl hall. It was terrible for me seeing them every day in love.

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I started to concentrate my energy to shift the reality somehow. And so... I shifted my mind instead.
One night I was seeing some symbols and then I left home after 2 AM. I was rambling through the city, then I took taxi and went to police station to tell the police I had two ID cards. It was true. That week I found a long lost ID card.
I is not problem to found lost ID card and have two of them for a while. Problem is to go to the police after 2AM.
Police called my parents who took me to local mental hospital.

Nurse gave me some white pill after which I fell asleep. I woke up in totally different hospital in city located 120 km (almost 75 miles) from my home. When I found out which day it is I realised that I didn´t remember whole day. Weird!

pátek 15. února 2019

First Hospitalization - part 2

I was recovering. I still had some delusions. But it was better. After being manic I was suffering post psychosis depression.
My thinking was still symbolic. When I was watching TV it was so cool! Every show had higher meaning.
I talked to some people who were hospitalized with me and made some friends. We talked about mysterious stuff together. We shared some of our delusions. 
I started to be very sleepy because of medication. But doctor thought I was better and so I was released from mental hospital.
I came back home and was going to school again.

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neděle 25. února 2018

New blog

Hi, everyone! Welcome to my blog.

This blog is about my experience with a mental illness. To be concrete with a schizoaffectiove disorder.

Plese forgive me my gramatical mistakes. English is my second language.
What is my first language? Czech! Yes, I am Czech and I live in Czechia. (It´s a country in the middle of Europe). So, on this blog you can read about my experience with a psychiatrical treatment in Czechia.

If you speak czech, you can also read an older version of my blog, where I am still pretty active.
http://zdivocelamysl.blogspot.cz/
By the way, this blog is not translation of the old blog. So content here could be much different.

I hope, that you will like this place. Here we go!


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Between second and third episode

New start After high school graduation there was a summer which was too long. In September I started to visit university in one big czech ...