New start
After high school graduation there was a summer which was too long. In September I started to visit university in one big czech city. It was a new start for me.
First, I wast acting differt than in the time of high school. I was hanging out with cool kids. I fell in love with one man. Straight man...
Visit in mental hospital
In November I visited Bartholomew who was still in the same mental hospital. The day of the visit was totally strange. It started when I got on bus. I felt strong deja vu. Deja vu was even stronger when I came to the city where is located the hospital.
We went to hospital café. Some man sat next to us. He knew Bartholomew. He was just visiting another friend in this hospital. He looked like John Lennon. It was strange because I was listening Lennon that time. We started to talk. The conversting suddenly became very weird. We both knew that we had strong deja vu. He talked about movie Shutter Island and then we talked about many weird things. He told me "I see you understand many vital things. If you want to know more, come at 14:00 to the park, where we will smoke weed." Then he left.
I wanted to visit the park. But Bartholomew said that it is not a good idea. That it would end up bad.
So I din´t visit the park and came home instead. I watched Shutter Island and was in a strong hype after it.
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Sometimes I am remembering this moment. I feel like it was a very impornant crossroad. I think that if I went to the park and smoked weed that I woud have another episode and my life would be different.
Pills
So I was successfully studying universtity. My psychiatrist reduced the dose of drugs, so I had more energy. It was good part of my life. But I was still looking for some mystical things. And I was still broken hearted.
Next autumn I had a new roomate. I call him The Cat Magician. He was strange. He had answer to all my questions. He was constantly asking whether I knew where was possible to get weed. One day he finally got weed. And it was it... TO BE CONTINUED
